How do you feel about money?

After 26 years of marriage, which has built an undeniable sense of love, trust, and value, my husband and I are going into business together! I haven't had fear about his intentions of taking us both in a direction that is unknown and unfamiliar. I have had however, great fear of not having the security of knowing that a check will be in our bank every other week for a specified amount of money.

I view money as a necessity but not of a measure of happiness and status. My husband views money as something that is necessary and yet frustrating. He lives in a way, where "IF" this happens, I'll be happy. "IF" I make this amount annually, I'll be happy. 

The differences in our money management and the differences in our attitudes toward money are evident. We drive older cars that are paid off. We have a 20 year old home that we update when we have extra money. Our kids drive 20+ year old cars that have been taken care of. We don't vacation, which suits both of our personalities so that might seem sad to some but to us, we'd rather go camping in our beautiful mountains, which are right near us.

With this business build we are doing, we have been pleasantly shocked that we find importance in different things and we have both been extremely cautious with spending. We also have noticed that we don't purchase anything without the other knowing about it. We didn't have set plans, which could be a problem in the future, but we have naturally taken that love and trust we have in each other and carried that out in our decisions. 

Our goals for all the money we are going to make (right?!), is to make sure we are comfortable. We have talked about our bootstrapping moments, our plans to pay back the bank loan we have gotten for this, and our goals when this becomes successful, because we know it will (or really, really hope) be amazing. 

Saving, being transparent, understanding, trusting each other and ourselves, putting our family first, this will be evident in how we treat the actual dollars. I don't want to wish away time BUT I am anxious to see how this plays out in 6 months, 12 months, 60 months, and more!